Surprise, surprise!

I wrote that I was having some troubs with my boyfriend, didn't I? Well, he did all those on purpose -_-

The last April 24th was my birthday, he made me upset so that he could come over to my house without me knowing nothing about his plans, that brat.

And all I can do was smiling and holding myself not to cry :')

Oh God I love him.

The surprise was a scrapbook he made all by himself ❤

Relation-shit.

Ummh hello. So... it's been a kinda long time since the last time I wrote here, eh? Well whatevs, nobody cares :') lol.

So I've been having a problem with K. I don't even know what the prob is. Maybe our relationship's just too perfect that we just need an 'end'. I don't know.

But people, here's one thing I learnt : relationship, was meant for two. One of you can't ever dominate the relationship. If you want to take the lead, go find a human-sized mirror and date it, cos that means it's you and yourself that you love.

And when you really have to let go, let go.

Don't hurt yourself, and don't, ever, hurt your partner.

Sometimes it's harder and much more hurt to be freed than to let go. That feeling of having your beloved one letting you go away, pushing you out of their life, that feeling of not being the-special-one anymore, it hurts, it really is.

But then again, it's better to let go off each other than to hurt each other.

Peace out. Have a grrreat day/night. Smooch.

Him. Whom I call Kiki. (Full of Cheesy Words -_-)

Oi!! Sooo this is me, Hanum :p hmm I've deleted some posts, due to some 'changes'...

So how's life, peeps? Good? Awesome. Mine's been pretty good. Not. Really. Welp :| teenagers probs.

Aaaanywaaay, I finally got something I've been waiting for the last 2 years. My 1st love. He won't believe me. That was the first time I've ever had a crush on someone, when I first saw him. Deathly charming, he is. Geez. What is with me? I've fell too deep for this person. Where's my pride? -_-

He could be so annoying sometimes, yet very sweet at the other times. He's childish. Arrogant. Selfish. But he's so cute, he's kind, he's a very good keeper, he, sometimes, is wise, and he is hilarious! XD And of course, surprisingly sweet. :)
But he won't ever put his trust on me, and that, well, hurts. Pathetic, isn't it, to date somebody who doesn't want to believe in you? He doesn't even trust that I love him. He has reasons, behind it. He knows that I've done something really bad back then. It was so wrong, I know. But I also had reasons for that. And I won't do that to him. There's no way I would ever do that to him. How would I? I've been waiting for this guy and the time isn't short. And if only he knows, how do I feel about him. I was, and still, crazy in love, with this person.


I was more like his stalker, before we became an item. I was his fangirl (maybe I still am?). I went anywhere he went, I bought anything he bought at the school's cafeteria, I tried so hard only to guess the username of his Twitter account, I tried and tried to find his Facebook, I'd wait for him to come outta his class when the school bell rings, I made friends with his friends so that I can dig many things about him... And I was so curious how does his voice sound like haha. I was pathetic. Well, still am ._.
My eyes followed him, my ears were looking for his voice, and my brain didn't want to stop thinking about him, even for a minute. And they still do.

Ki, if you see this post, I can only say "Yes baby, your girlfriend is a nuts :)" and you knew it, rite? :p

He always says that I'm an autistic kid -_- he's rite actually, but sheesh, am yewr girlfrand! Boo! :|

Hhhh I miss him. We haven't talked to each other for 2 days now. I don't know what my fault is. I miss him. :(

I need him. I'm happy when he's with me. And I become a mess when he's far. This is cheesy, I know, it's purely just because I love him that deep. Yuck. I wanna puke writing those words -_- but for real.... I love him 'that' deep.

P.S. : Dear Kiki, if you find this post out one day, let's just consider that it wasn't me, who wrote this. This is embarrassing y'know -_-

Heyow Thereee :D

This is Hanum writing :D hihi, welcome to my new blog. I actually had made 2 blogs back then, but I didn't write a lot, I've got no time for doing some updates, I forgot the passwords, so yeah, I just stopped blogging :/ then why did I make a new blog? I don't know ._. I made it without any purposes... Whateverrrr I'm still gonna write tho'. *likeaboss*

Anywayyy I don't really know what I wanna write in this hmm introduction post, actually. *voice outta nowhere: "YOU CALLED THIS INTRODUCTION POST, AND YOU STILL DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU WANNA WRITE? D'UH, DID I MISS SOMETHING?"* ahh, rite.. I've gotta introduce myself :$

Well, as what you can see in the third word of the first sentence in the first line, my name is Hanum. Anisa Hanum. What a beautiful name, rite? :') uhm. And am a highschool student. I'm sixteen, going on seventeen. I'm *the last time I checked* a girl, no doubt. I have two sisters. Anddd I have 4 cats. 2 kittens and 2 older cats. Yup, I'm a cat person :D see my photo? That's me & and one of my cats. I have three Persian and that one's only a local cat, but I love her vewwwy much <3


Humm what else... Oh, let's talk about the things I like. I like cats (of course, and y'know it), I like books, paintings, I like tuzki bunny (you'd probably think "what the hell tuzki bunny is?!" by now, I'm gonna explain it later), coffees, foods, desserts (my favorites are creme brulee, red velvet cupcake, rare cheese cake, fruit pies and sweet pancakes), I love surprises (who doesn't?), travelling, do some fun photoshoots with my gurls, and I love cheerleading.

Yup, I'm a cheerleader. Back base. And I'm so proud of being a cheerleader. And peeps, CHEERLEADING IS A SPORT.

Wellllll, I dunno what else to write sooo I think I'm gonna end this post now. *actually, it's just because I'm fungry -fuckin' hungry- and my mum has successfully made my stomach growl :Q

Wtyl, sweetpeas! Peace out. xoxo<3